Its just not the same

im filled with nervousness as it grabs a hold of my aching heart as it tries to pump blood to whats left of my ever slowly dying body.I just don't feel the same she told me.  Those words will forever burn in my life in infamy. A curtain of sorrowfulness is draped over my life, covering my eyes of the ever lasting seamless pain. Its not you, its me.  I just don't know what i want.  Its not fair to you.  You deserve better then me.  These words cut deeper than the grand canyon on the earths surface.  If you loved somebody this much how could you brake their heart so there is nothing left.  All the pieces scattered around like pieces of glass shattered from once a beautiful stained glass window.  Its just never going to be the same now...is it?